Saturday, October 18, 2014

10/17/14 5:40pm (tho it started long before this)

Dear Husband,

Come before daybreak
dear Husband
There are too many people here
people who don't know me
and don't know you

They have asked me a dozen times
in a million insinuated ways
"When are you getting married
"When will you commit for the rest of your life?
"When will you join yourself to something
             bigger than yourself
and see it through to the end?"

they can't see the ring on my finger
nor the lock on my heart
They don't know that I am yours
as you are mine

Come kiss me in the sight of all my critics
the skeptics
the ill-believers
Hold my hand in the midst of the gossips
and the mother-hens
and the busybodies too busy knowing
to know this body

dear Husband
they don't know us
but come quickly
lest I tell them as much.

9/2/14 10:45am Counting Crows always remind me of you

where are you?
The song you wrote about us
came on the radio today
such an old song
it's been so long since you've said hello
Since worrying about your problems was something I'd tried to duck
to avoid

What kind of man have you become

Are you alive
or is the news report I googled going to be my only notice
that you've died
Who are the pretty girls driving you wild
with their tales of love another

Have you made up with your Father
Has your brother moved back in
Is your sister your new sanctuary

I was the only one who claimed you
I was the only one who thought more of you
than "partying good time guy"
I know boys leave home
and never think of it again
but everyone goes home sometimes
even the ones they've built without walls